Play a game with me

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 01:26:25 GMT

I-it was only a joke.

Ahahaha, funny, right? Joke?

~~Did not think the reaction would be so...bad...~~

(locked//hackable)

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 22:07:50 GMT

You can't treat me like this.

I don't care what you think, Father, I know what I'm capable of and I know what I'm doing.
This is not beyond my capabilities. My capabilities, I must assure you, encompass much more than what you think they do.

How dare you treat me like this, how dare you give me orders.

H-how dare you treat me like your stupid son.

(locked from dSovsors)

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 06:25:08 GMT

This is not good.

Mildirkane - ...'Uncle' - was positively raging. I tried to keep away from him - Lacey was away, fortunately (I think this will be the only time when I am grateful to Reia for giving her those stupid errands to fulfill), but he pulled me aside to speak to me after he resolved his shouting match over the phone.
I hate how I can never see his eyes behind his glasses when he speaks to me. It's unnerving, and I can't look at him without feeling a few hairs stand on end now. I was utterly terrified that something had happened with - to - Lacey, but it seems we're still safe as of yet.

He told me that Tali is here, in Sovsor.
I don't know where he is exactly or what has happened to him, but Al La, Tali is in Sovsor. I don't know whether I should be entirely joyful or terrified for him. I know that Tali has conditioned himself and has been through many tough times, but I can only imagine what may happen to him.

I have to find him.

What's this?

Tue, 23 Sep 2008 06:54:46 GMT

Goodness, I haven't seen Father that angry in ages.

Apparently Laceukan did something really stupid this time. Father was positively raging on the phone, and downright gloomy for the rest of the day afterwards.
What could have possibly gone wrong?

I think your uncle may be getting the boot soon, Czanlii.

Mutke jaf niv tekeral

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 00:07:35 GMT

Reia -
Laci is my ama, and thereby my servant. I can understand that with you growing up surrounded and constantly cared for by servants, you assume that you may simply use any caretaker around you as your own.
However, this is not true. Laci is my personal ama ~~and is very close to me~~, and I do not appreciate you taking advantage of her being a servant.

She doesn't belong to you.

(locked from dSovsors, etc)

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 04:46:32 GMT

Love those of your own flesh and blood, for they are who have made you.

Love those of your own flesh and blood, for they are who have made you.

Love those of your own flesh and blood, for they are who have made you.

Al La, but how can I when they've taken my sword from me?

(locked from everyone)

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 04:21:53 GMT

No more English. Iya and I almost got caught talking in English today, all because of me.

Oh, God, I'm just...
...I'm so scared.
I don't want to get caught
or taken away

Most of all I don't want her to pay for lying about me

I shouldn't have gone with her.
Shouldn't have put her in any of this danger.

I hate this place.
I know Iya does too.

It doesn't look like we're being let out anytime soon, though...

Oh, man...

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 03:03:05 GMT

I do not look like a bear.

~~...Do I?~~

MUAHAHA

Sun, 31 Aug 2008 03:21:34 GMT

DAAAAANCE PUPPETS
DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANCE
*cackle*

[locked from dSovsors] Lacey said I should

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 05:07:19 GMT

Male or female?
Her kiss is sweeter than an apple pie
("Lollipop")

Describe yourself
You think I've got my eyes closed - I've been looking at you the whole time
("Once")

What do people feel when they're around you?
In this mirror, they all look the same
("Sections")

How would you describe your previous relationship?
Stop that now, you're as close as it gets without touching me
("Daylight Robbery")

Describe your current relationship
We could be heroes just for one day
("Elephant Love Medley")

Where would you want to be right now?
I sing through the land, the land sings through me
("Sky Blue")

How do you feel about love?
I read with every broken heart, we should become more adventurous
("More Adventurous")

What's your life like?
Though I still remember the smile when you took me apart
("Angels")

What would you ask for if you had one wish?
We believe in peace, salaam, shalom
("Peace Salaam Shalom")

Say something wise
Some things you do for money, and some you do for fun, but the things you do for love are going to come back to you one by one
("Love Love Love")

Back

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 00:53:34 GMT

I fucking hate Souvrei.

[locked from Reia]

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 03:44:04 GMT

There was a crooked man who walked a crooked mile
he raised a crooked sixpence to hide a crooked style
He won a crooked vote
and smiled a crooked smile.

(Al, Lalesa, Mildir is coming back to Sovsor...)

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 04:06:25 GMT

Calhoun's going to be away for work again - another three weeks in Souvrei is what he told me. Sounds like the usual - camp inspections, possibly some guard or special service work.

It's going to be quiet here. I mean, Iya and her ama are still here - they will be until father decides to let them back on their way to Lalea - although they mostly keep to themselves, and I don't know what I'm going to do with them in the meantime. I realize I should want to spend some time with Iya - it's probably been near three years at least since I saw her last - although somehow now I feel like I simply don't want to be around her. She seems to be avoiding me, too (which is actually somewhat insulting - didn't she come down to Sovsor to see her family?!)
But the house always gets so quiet without Calhoun stomping about and talking loudly and making noise in general. Given, it's always annoying and positively unbearable when he does this, but without him the house seems nearly empty.
It's not that I'll really miss him. It will just...be very different without him here for the first time in a while.

Anyway, apparently mother and father are heading here for the week to visit, before father has to go back to Irbour for work. No doubt it'll be nice - I've missed the both of them very much and I can't wait for father to take me shopping.

I just wish I could dial Ivlaut sometime, and have him visit soon. Apparently he's got a lot of business going at the moment, however, and running his camp has gotten so hectic for him that he doesn't have time for anything else.
It's a shame. I've missed him more than anyone else.

But here I'll be in this big empty house, with only Iya-lii and her friend for company. Oh, goodie.

Daia cerbtal...

Sun, 03 Aug 2008 16:58:40 GMT

Happy Birthday, Calhoun ♥

I just have to ask

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 01:18:02 GMT

Why in the world does Iya still keep an ama?
She's sixteen now, if I remember correctly. She doesn't need a servant to be her little friend anymore. Anyway, I thought she was in Sovsor to visit us, her family, instead of toting around with her ama.

The girl's Cisoran, and barely speaks Esctrain, too. I think it's just a little ridiculous.

(By the way, Calhoun, do you know if Czan is related to Lacua at all? I know they spend a lot of time together and she looks a good deal like him, too...)

You call it a meme, correct? [locked from Calhoun and Reia]

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 05:04:24 GMT

Lacey saw that a lot of people at run_you_fool had done this and got excited about it, and wanted me to do one. I don't really like these things, but I suppose there's not a lot of harm in doing one, right?
Although I to make a few, uhm, edits in the questions...

1. The guy you would take to meet your parents: Brian seems like an awfully nice young man, very sweet and well-spoken. I'd say him.
2. The one guy you would do: I...don't think I'd ever...well, I don't know...
3. The girl you'd have sex with in your parents bed: ...Why would I ever do that?
4. The girl you'd take to the mall: Mall? I don't know. Natana?
5. Your male BFF: ~~What's a BFF?~~ Greg, possibly? He's very funny, and cute..
6. Your female BFF: Uhm. I'd say Lacey.
7. Your gay BFF: You have got to be kidding me. ~~I say Robert.~~
8. The guy who'd take you to prom: Someone nice. Maybe Greg.
9. Your big brother: My big brother. Tali.
10. The guy you'd marry: If I had to marry a man I think that Brian would be my first choice.
11. The two girls you'd have a threesome with: Oh...alright. Probably Claire...and...Judith...(mumble)
12. The girl and guy you'd have a threesome with: I don't know, I don't know!
13. The guy you'd go clubbing with: ...I don't know. ~~Someone who could keep all of the drunks and druggies away...~~
14. The girl you'd have angry hot sex with: I don't know.
15. The girl you'd call after a break-up: I couldn't say. I'm not sure I'd call anyone.
16. The girl you'd have sex with when no one else is around: Lacey.
17. The girl you'd have sex with when you're cheating on your wife/girlfriend: Cheating is so unfair, but...Miss Natana.
18. The guy you'd tell all your secrets: Brian.
19. The person you'd commit a murder with: ...Jack seems like he could get away with a lot.
20. The boy you'd go to the gym with: Probably Tali.
21. Your shoulder to cry on: Lacey.
22. The guy you'd ask to beat up your cheating girlfriend: I would never want that to happen to the person I would be dating! ~~Although in the case of needing anyone beaten up, Calhoun may be an effective middleman.~~
23. The girl you'd always come back to: Lacey. Lacey. Every time, Lacey.
24. The girl you'd die for: Lacey.
25. The guy who'd get you pregnant: ...I really don't plan on getting pregnant...

Iya's word of the day

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 02:52:34 GMT

Ahaha I got bored.

Writer's Block: Feeling Better

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 04:21:56 GMT

What makes you feel better when you're mad?

Submitted By kimmayeisblack

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Target practice works perfectly. To feel that heavy lead bullet be propelled from the gun, speeding through the air...feeling that wonderful sense of malice and potential physical harm to others...even just knowing that you've got a gun in your hands and the other person doesn't (they're completely defenseless) is such a good release of anger. It's one of those moments where you...almost become one with the weapon you're holding. It's an extension of yourself, a tool for honing your tangled emotions.

Not to mention how satisfying it is to see someone else's brains go flying everywhere.

[locked to Iya (hackable with effort)]

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 04:44:03 GMT

Oh my -

It's just a dream.
It's just a dream.

It's just...

Oh, this isn't good.

(...Iya, we need to talk.)

Naja...[locked to Reia/hackable]

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 03:52:21 GMT

Look, Reia, er -

I'm sorry, pet.

I know you probably don't really want to actually talk to me, but...
Well, I'd much rather see you face than have you yelling at me through the journal.

I even got you something nice.

Just talk to me. Please?

~~I hope you see this...~~

[locked to: Calhoun and Reia]

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 20:56:58 GMT

Around 23-something tonight, Reia finally turns to me and says,
"That was lovely, Calhoun, thank you. Now hush up and let me get some sleep, will you?"
I'm already half-asleep. "...Alright..."

Later:
"Calhoun...? Calhoun!" She's shaking my shoulder like it was something urgent.
I am still not really awake. "Wa - ?"
"Calhoun, stop that! You were kicking me!"
"...What...? I was not..." Really. I wasn't.
"Yes, you were. Stop it."
"Alright..."

...
"Calhoun, I'm cold."
"Okay then. Come here."
"No. Just give me some more of the covers." She's clutching the blanket and dragging it all onto her side.
"Heyheyhey! Don't I get some of the covers too?"
"No." She rolls over with nearly all of the blanket and promptly goes back to sleep.

"Get off me, Calhoun, I am not a pillow!"
"Look, you've got all of the blanket - "
She pushes me off rather rudely, before hissing, "I am not a pillow."

At about 24 I wake up again because I can't breathe, and she's got her hands around my neck.
I tear her claws away from my throat and she looks at me and pouts and says, "You were snoring."
I was snoring. I was snoring. I was snoring, so she decided to choke me to death. Great.
"I'm sorry. I'm sure you can put up with it."
"No, I can't, Calhoun, because you are so loud."
"Do you want me to sleep with my head in the pillow so you can't hear me?"
"...Actually, that would be nice."
I roll over and dig my face into the pillow.

Finally, she's practically yelling at me, "Calhou-n! Calhoun, it's nearly one in the morning now! You've kept me up all night!"

...I have no words.

Al, Rac...

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 02:56:15 GMT

I have never been so embarrassed in all of my life.

Calhoun? I hate you.

A lesson in Esctrain [locked from Calhoun and Reia]

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 07:58:37 GMT

ah ae e
ou au oh
arr te ke ce
ve ne me be
la we (and sometimes 'pe')

Iya has recently taken to teaching me some Esctrain. Ever since we've both been Shanghai'd and taken to Sovsor, we've both been anxious about...well, you know. Her uncle for one reason or another seems to be none the wiser, although he's one of those men who has these sudden bizarre bursts of suspicion that he puts on like a show and then goes about his business like he forgot all about whatever it was that bothered him earlier.
But he's...supposed to be the head honcho around here, as far as I know. He should be one of the nastier...guys...so why doesn't he really seem like it...?

I took my earrings out today - the upper ones, the cartilage, finally (the ones that hadn't been ripped out earlier). Iya told me that women here don't have any upper piercings to speak of...it would be really glaringly obvious that I don't belong...
My ears still hurt really badly - they'd been sore for a while, but now that they're out I just feels...ouch.

I was really anxious when she started talking to me again. I thought she was going to say something...you know...important. But she just had to say something about my 'disguise'. Which...I guess is kind of important in a way, but for some reason I still expected her to actually say something...to me, I guess.
I might be a little paranoid or something. All of this working and stuff and stress has definitely set me on edge (well, yeah, there's a huge understatement). I guess I don't really know what I was expecting from her...

Bored...

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 00:27:48 GMT

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	High
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Very High
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

Who's calling who 'narcissistic'?

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Extreme
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Moderate
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

...Ha! Humans are so funny. Lustful...wrathful...gloomy...So?

...Salu?

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 05:07:18 GMT

So this is what humans call the Internet.
The Internet.

It's appalling.

I can't begin to describe how disgusting this place is. Humans...from everywhere, crowding everywhere. Joking and networking and trading endless amounts of crude writing and pornography.
I think I might feel a little sick.

I do hope that I may keep this little corner of the Internet safe. A bastion of rational godly thought. Of course, that prospect may be a little difficult (seeing as I'm sharing this with my brother, Calhoun...and I still have absolutely no idea why), but I can only try, after all.
This could be a place to store my thoughts - perhaps connect with some others like me (lonely godly souls lost in a sea of idiocy and humanity).

Al, Rac...cu vuike un tatui-li uni.